Tuesday, October 28, 2008

Remembering Dad

I wanted to thank you all for your comments and concern. Last week was one of the busiest weeks I've had in a long time and I just needed a break to regroup! But I'm back today.

And today I am remembering my Dad. On October 28, 1995 my father passed away. There is not a day that goes by that I don't think of him. My father's nick name was Tex. I think my mother told me that he got his nickname because when he was a little boy he used to deliver newspapers by horse. Cape Cod is not notorious for naming their children Tex. The only person I ever heard only call him by his name, Allen, was my grandmother. :)
What a cute little boy!

I've posted this picture before but I just love his smile.

This is how I remember my father looking. It's no surprise where my big round cheeks come from.
My father had lung cancer and just a few months after my wedding in 1995 he died. This picture of him looks so sickly. He lost so much weight. It's not how I see him when I think back on him.

I have dreams about him all the time. In my dreams I know that he has died yet he is always there. When I first found out I was pregnant with Tim I had a dream that I saw him and told him and he told me that he already knew.
Tim was born with club feet and the first trip to the hospital in Boston was a difficult time for me. I remember sitting in Boston traffic worrying, and saying a little prayer. I asked for some sort of sign to let me know that everything would be alright with Tim. I looked up at the truck ahead of us and there was a sticker on the back that said "Tex". I knew then that Tim would be OK.
There was another time when Tim was VERY VERY sick and in intensive care at the hospital which was a very frightening time for our family. One day I felt my father by Tim's side. It was such a powerful feeling.
I knew that if I was to ever have a son he would be given my father's name. Timothy Allen was born just shy of three years after my father's death.
So, today I remember him, miss him and love him very much.
take care,


Smilingsal said...

Allen is my son's name; I love that name with that spelling. I've missed you and am glad to hear that you're alright. I know that you loved your dad. This is a lovely tribute.

Dawn, you've been Boo-ed! Come find out what that means. :-O

Lorrie said...

What a sweet post Dawn. I can't imagine how you've missed your Dad. He sounds like such a special man--you are blessed to have had have him for a father.

I'm glad to see you back, I've missed your daily posts! I know how busy life can get though and you're smart to take time out when you need it.

Check back to my blog, because you've been BOO-ed by me too!

Debi said...

Oh Dawn, what a lovely post. The love just radiates through every word! Huge hugs to you, sweetie!

Darlene said...

Hi Dawn,

What a beautiful tribute to a very special man. I am glad you took a little break and are feeling better now. I missed you.♥

jeanne said...

Dawn, I am so happy to see you posting today. and what a beautiful tribute to your dad. He was a very handsome man and I love his name, Tex Allen is also a very nice name. Tim will be proud to have Allen as his middle name. I loved my dad too and I know how you miss your dad very well.

Oh my gosh, I just got up to let Babette out and it is snowing. Babette took one look at that stuff and ran back in the house. LOL. Bill just had to coax her outside again. Poor thing. I did put her winter coat on this AM. It is 35 degrees.

Dawn, you have been boo-ed. Come over and see what that means. It is the post before today's


jeanne said...

Oops I just realized you were already boo-ed by Sally. Darn that Sally. LOL


Beverly said...

I'm sending you big hugs today. I'll be thinking of you. Love you.

Neabear said...

What a nice tribute to your father! He was a special man in your life. I was going to Boo you too. But seems others have gotten to you before me.

Nola @ the Alamo said...

What a sweet tribute to your Dad; I know how you feel, every day that goes by I still think of and miss my Mom. It's nice to still feel them near, isn't it. Hold onto the sweet memories and celebrate his life today!

Rechelle ~Walnuthaven Cottage~ said...

Thank you for sharing the memories of your dad. I'm sure he was a special man. I feel our loved ones are always with us as long as we keep them in our hearts.

Theresa @ Take A Sentimental Journey said...

Oh Dawn, such a wonderful post about your dad . I really do miss my dad also. My youngest son's middle name is Allen . Sending you a big ole hug !

Shelia said...

Dawn, I've missed you! What a very sweet tribute to your Daddy! I miss my Daddy, too, but just think - you will hold all the special memories of him in your heart forever.
Be a sweetie,
Shelia ;)

Madam Zelda E said...

You should take comfort in knowing that your Dad is ALWAYS with you now.
I miss my Dad, he died in 1999, but he is ALWAYS with me now.

g said...

Dawn, what a beautiful tribute to your dad. I love that picture of him as a young man - such a great smile. Kind of like yours!

litanyofbritt said...

i didnt know that about hte "TEX" in traffic. that was so scary when he was in the hospital. i would have fallen to pieces but you kept it all together somehow.
i think grandpa was the one who said "hi brittainy" when i was in the hospital after i had jack. and also i think it was him who touched my shoulder on my wedding day.